hello beautiful weekend

oh weekend, i love you so...and boy do we have one jammed full of fun. isn't that the best kind to have?


tonight both of the littles are going to winterjam soooooo mr. cutler and i have a date night planned.  we are going to do dinner, get our taxes done and hopefully get my nails done.  not sure he'll enjoy date night nearly as much as i will  :)
tomorrow will be a day packed full of cleaning, cleaning, cleaning (with laundry thrown in there)...the youngest little will NOT be happy about that buuuuut such is life...tomorrow night we are going to have dinner and movie night...i'm thinking we should go out for dinner then just chill with netflix ♥

sunday i have a special breakfast planned for my sweet fam, homemade breakfast pizza...we have church and then a big day of nothing but jammies + movies.  i love sundays!!!!

out for now
~kisses

a {little} bump in the road

Reckless words pierce like a sword ~Proverbs 12:18

i am one of those girls that likes to pretend that words don't hurt my feelings.  i like to pretend i can just brush them off and go on about my day.  i take the hurtful words, cram them deep down inside and save them for another day.  a day that i'm by myself and can pull those words back out and stress over them all by myself.

two nights ago the littles and i went out for dinner while we were waiting on my car to be worked on.  i had two restaurants planned out beforehand and had already browsed their menus and figured out what my healthy option would be from there.  i've been doing sooo well with sticking to my diet and i knew planning ahead was key for me.  but there was a wrench thrown in the works (as life does so many times) and we ended up having to go to a restaurant that i hadn't planned for.  we walked through the doors, i panicked and had no idea what to pick.  i mean, there are people in line behind me, surely i can't just stand here and whip out my weight watchers point calculator.  i panicked, rushed and reverted to my old ways.  i picked something that i knew was unhealthy.

knowing i had made a bad choice, i hung my head and followed the waitress to our table to be seated.  i sat there, slightly stressing, and talked to myself.  (tell me i am not the only person that talks to themselves inside their head)  i knew i had ate extremely well all day long and was WELL under my points.  i whipped out my calculator, figured my points for my meal and a cup of soup.  i was pleasantly shocked that i was still 3 points under for the day! 

the littles and i had a great dinner and really just enjoyed each others company, eating and laughing the entire time.  then jade said "my head keeps telling me not to have dessert but my belly is telling me to go get some".  i told her we would hit up the dessert bar but just have a little bit.  i knew i had 3 points to spend and thought i would get a bit of ice cream. 

i was standing at the ice cream bar, littles beside me, and i hear someone walking quickly up behind me.  i turn when i heard them start to speak to me.  it's a man that i've never saw before in my life, ever.  he was a total stranger.  and he says "you know, that's all very fattening".  i stood there, mouth hanging open, and just stared at him.  i had no response (and those of you that KNOW me know that is something)

he had might as well of just walked up and told me i was just a big fat fatty, that is what it felt like he said anyways.  i again hung my head and walked back to my seat, carrying my ice cream.  i felt defeated and low.  in those 6 little words he managed to make me feel like the "fat girl" again.  i was instantly self conscious of what i looked like.  i wanted to crawl under the table and become invisible.  those 6 words did more damage than that man would ever know.

my littles were instantly infuriated and wanted to spring to my defense.  i managed to play it off as not bothering me at all when what i really wanted to do was sit there and bawl my eyes out.  i knew if i did that we would have a big scene in the restaurant.  so i decided to turn it into a life lesson for them. 

lesson #1 was respect your elders.  the man was visibly older than i am, probably in his 60's.  (might i add that is also old enough to know better) i told the littles you always respect your elders, no matter what

lesson #2 was just because other people are ignorant doesn't mean we have to be as well.  (i know, right, can you even imagine those words came out of my mouth).  i guess i was hearing those famous words my mama has told me a million times "amy beth, keep your big mouth shut". 

i really wish people would think before they speak.  you have no idea  how sharp words are sometimes.  i'm working through it and i will be fine.  cause this chickie, yeah, she's a tough one  :)

out for now

~kisses

{semi} wordless wednesday

out for now

~kisses

hello tuesday...

oh tuesday, such a strange day for me to love...but i do. i love it for a few different reasons...

tonight the littles and i are heading to altoona to the dealership where i bought my durango...they are going to put a new battery in for me, which i am super pumped about...turns out i'm not a real big fan of my car not starting for battery related issues, especially when it's freezing cold out

after that the littles and i are going to head to subway for dinner...i would MUCH rather go to outback buuuut outback + my body are not friends, only on un-diet days...so dinner is going to be easy peasey tonight (and go against the meal planning monday post, my bad)

then hurry hurry home to get our workouts in before biggest loser comes on...biggest loser night is one of my FAV tv nights...i just loooove how much it inspires me to keep going in my journey!  i always take that opportunity to remind myself that i can do anything.at.all.


tomorrow the littles and i both have a day off...a day off means sleeping in, which i'm all for (please note that my bodys version of sleeping in is normally me waking up at 6 am rather than 5:30 am...and yes, i think it's complete rubbish)...our day will be filled with dr appointments for them (and some shots but sshhhhh don't tell them that) and i have an ultrasound to do a little check on some things...

so enjoy your tuesday as i'll be enjoying mine...

out for now
~kisses

meal planning monday

monday - crock pot chicken, gravy and stuffing (but made with turkey)...mmm, i bet it will be delish!

tuesday - chicken pie...this is, without a doubt, one of my FAV meals!!! i will alter it a bit to make it healthier (which means less butter, lol)...

wednesday - hobo bean soup...i love this soup (the oldest little does NOT, he isn't a lover of beans)...it's packed full of fiber and isn't bad on the diet...i cut the sugar amounts in half (to also be easier on the diet) and i use turkey bacon...i'm hoping to be able to freeze some of it in single servings for a quick grab-and-go for lunches at work...

thursday - spaghetti with meat sauce (whole wheat pasta, my own canned spaghetti sauce and 96% fat free ground beef)

friday - chicken and dumplings...one of my own personal FAV winter meals...and i love how easy it is!  i use a rotisserie chicken bought from the grocery store and that makes it easy peasy.

saturday - perhaps a little pizza + movie night ♥

sunday - joes famous bbq ribs (thank you leyo's for your ridiculous sale on ribs), cheesy potatoes and ranch bread...can't hardly wait for this comfort packed meal!!!

out for now
~kisses

one of those days...

today is one of those days...the kind where you think of everyone in your life, everything you have in your life and where your life is headed and you just sit in awe, tears hanging in your eyes...my life is blessed in so many ways...i have an amazing family, my friends are the best, gypsy tree is doing amazing things...i want to take time today to remember JUST how blessed i am and to thank God for it all...have a GREAT sunday everyone!!!


out for now
~kisses

p.s. remember to count your blessings today too =)

can i get a whoop whoop

random things that i ♥ about today...

* the weekend is almost here
* movie night with my littles tonight
* luncheon at work (un-diet day)  <----also read this as "eating ridiculous amounts of bbq ham"
* jeans + boots, fav combo ever
* an ah-maz-ing husband

out for now
~kisses

statements of stupidity

a little list of statements i've received over the years that are obviously NOT the way to get on my good side, just fyi...someday i'm sure i'll look back and laugh...well, maybe i will...

~  "i'm glad too see your hair is straight now and not that kinky stuff you've had for years...i hated that"
~  "in case you need it soon, the wide load sign is in the garage"
~  "you remind me of her sister...ya know, the butch one"
~  "so what kind of drugs are you taking to lose weight"
~  "that store has really ugly clothes...so when they are too big for you, can i have them"
~  "wow, cute kids...are they both to your husband"
~  "oh, you're actually doing work today?  boy, that's out of the ordinary"
~  "is that a picture of aaron rodgers?  oohh, that's your son"
~  "amy being skinny?  i've never saw that yet"
~  "that is a cute hairstyle...but you understand it won't make you LOOK like that girl, right?"
~  "why are you putting splenda in that?  isn't it already sweetened?  that's dumb.  you know, splenda causes cancer.  i can't believe you would put ALL that in there.  what is wrong with you?" 

out for now
~kisses

{semi} wordless wednesday

out for now

~kisses

* this IS me *

this IS me

inside and out
i look the way i look
think the way i think
believe what i believe
feel the way i feel
and love the way i love
i refuse to appologize for it
don't try to change me
or make me feel like less of a person
because i don't fit your idea of who i should be
i love myself 100%
the good and the bad

out for now
~kisses

meal planning monday

monday - french dip beef sammy and sweet potato french fries baked in the oven...this is something the ENTIRE fam loves...and the leftovers can be frozen to make a delish meat pie in the future...

tuesday -  creamy ranch pork chops and rice...a dinner the entire fam loves!

wednesday - turkey hotdogs {for mama}, corndogs {for the littles} and boxed mac n cheese (meal requested by the littles)

thursday -  subway with the littles
 
friday - pizza + movie night with friends  =)

saturday - out to dinner with the fam

sunday - Rotisserie Huli Huli Pork Tenderloin and garlic mashed potatoes


out for now
~kisses

oh it's a happy monday

yep, extra day off this weekend...HECK to the YES!!!

out for now

~kisses